
Wow! I've really come fully circle with myself:
getting to know thyself,
finding my happy within,
doing what I love and loving what I do passionately, and
my WHY as to living this life here and now. This self seeking to know the truth and thyself journey has led me to a more beautiful and enlightened perspective about life, one that I can truly be excited about, regarding what the future shall bring. It was in that moment of sudden realization or re-awakening that I decided to do an absolute brave thing and chop off my coiffeur. Yes, indeed I did, and boy, it was a real shocker, not only to myself but to others as well.
In that very moment, I was frozen by angst and concern, regarding what others may think. How would they now view me? Will this new look suit me? All of those pessimistic and negative thoughts came to mind, that it nearly stopped me from moving forward with my decision, but I pressed onward, with my eyes wide open
(as is the look on my face in the attached photo) and chopped it all off. I gasped but quickly released a sigh of relief, because I needed to let go of the old me, in order to welcome in the new and improved one, and thus, here I am today, light and free to become and morph into that which is of my highest and greatest self. I'm truly fluttering like a butterfly, unchained from the cocoon within my own mind and that had stifled me against my own freedom. You know, that still, peaceful place within, where you are truly set free. Yes, it's that special place that we all can shine brilliantly from and extend that marvelousness back out into this world that we live in.
With that, I'm loving the new me that I've become, and for awhile I was truly stuck with the thought or idea that if I did this brave thing of cutting off all my hair, even though it was already in it's natural state, from my decision a year ago, in November of 2012, to do away with the chemical processing and treatment of my hair, I realized that I didn't do it right initially, as I should have done the "Big Chop", whereas I was to cut off the old relaxed portion of my hair from the new growth that stemmed naturally from my roots - hence, called "Natural Hair". So, because of that mishap of not doing it right the first time, I winded up with breakage along the way and that caused me to now have to, a year later, chop it all off. It was after trimming it myself that I realized that because of the damage done to my ends and that ate its way up my hair shaft, I was left with short hair here, long hair there, here, and everwhere. It was a hot mess, to say the least. So, off it went in quickly deciding to do so.
Subsequently, by cutting off my hair, I've also done away with the silly, pre-conceived thinking that says,
"A woman's hair is her beauty". REally? I certainly can't tell, because I'm not my hair. My hair is a part of me, yes. It's an extension of my beauty, but it certainly does not define beauty. Beauty is something that is deeply rooted within and that we must draw from the inside out. My hair is merely an extension of that beauty, whether long or short. Therefore, even if I was to bald my head, would that make me suddenly ugly because all of my hair would be gone? No, you'd still see my beauty, inner and outer, and anyone else's for that matter, because afterall, beauty is something that shine from what's inside to the outside of oneself, time, space, and being. Hair is simply an accentuation to one's beauty, like accessories are to your clothes, and I'm fine with it being short and curly and straight all at the same time. Yes, I'm to be known as the woman with the curly-straight hair, as I've come to realize about the growth pattern of my hair, that it holds two textures - curly and straight. Odd right? But it is what it is, and I've come to fully embrace it, and I encourage all of you natural ladies to do the same, embrace and accept who you are, become who you were meant to be, and you do so when you let go of all the idiotic nuisances and stigmas and stereotypes within your mind and from others that says that this is the way you're supposed to be, because it's what everyone else is doing, and it's what society approves of. I say, no, do you truthfully and awaken to the greatest you there is to be. The truth is that there's no one else like you. So, why in heaven's name would you want to conform to wanting to be like everyone else? There's no real gain or growth with that sort of thinking. It's surely the kind that'll have you spinning in circles, lost and confused, and getting no where fast.
So, break free from the stereotypes, the cliches, and the tightly sealed boxed in way of thinking and allow yourself to become all that you were meant to be, here and now. The truth is that I'm enjoying this short hair journey, that'll lead to a longer and an even more meaningful and beautiful extension of myself. I am truly excited and grateful for this experience and all of the wonderful possibilities and insight that it has brought and will invite into my life. I am open, and I am free.
Be brave. Be bold, but most of all, BE YOU! :-)